what's been going on

so i've been trying my hand at antidepressants (AD). my first attempt was a week ago monday. the day before my period. after i had a heinous day at work. i was up at 1am, sweating my nuts off. yeah, i had them, but these AD made them melt away. anyway, after the hot flash went away (about 15 minutes), the nausea set in. like a vomiting dusk. and didn't rise until the next day at 2pm. nausea like, "can't smell food without wanting to hurl." i went to work late and then went to my lab, which goes until 9pm. ha! i left at 8, since i still felt pretty crappy. i didn't take my meds that night. i said, "screw it, i'll wait until the weekend to make myself feel like crap." so i called my doc, he said to halve the dose and give it another shot. so i did just that.

and it worked like a charm.

i don't know if it was because it was a full dose, because it was the day before my period, or what, but man, i was totally freaked out about taking that half dose. but the side-effects were totally gone. thank god.

now i'm tired. so tired. but i'm hoping that by the time my next period rolls around, this is all balanced out. i don't want to be up all night, fighting the urge the puke.