one of those days

it's one of those days when i feel like i have razors cutting me from the inside. i am so irritated and anxious and annoyed. i am bored but can't find anything to entertain me. i am hungry, but nothing is appetizing. i am tired, but i'm at work so i can't just fall asleep. if i were a kid right now, i'd have a meltdown. i just feel out-of-sorts. unsettled. can't concentrate. and i have 2.5 hours before i can get the fuck out of here. kill me now. i just feel that my life should be more interesting, but it's just not and i can't figure out how to make it so. i don't want to sky dive, i don't want to be president, i don't want to write an award-winning screenplay. i just want my life to be better. more interesting. you never get used to being unhappy i guess.