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my thought process over the last few hours: i'm bored. no emails yet at work. i'll read my book. oh, the spine is falling apart. i'll tape it back together. i wonder what it would take for me to get a job in book preservation? i'll look that up online. oh, the school of the art institute has a masters program. OMG, it's $85,000. seriously? ok, UWM has an online program for much less. do i really want to do that? let's see about medical jobs. phlebotomy? lab tech? microbiology? how far do i have to go for that kind of job? phlebotomy class at truman is $1600. is it accredited? it doesn't look like it. what schools are accredited? rush, U-I, rosalind university. what about a lab job? i'd like to take microbiology again. it's at night at truman this fall. then i could get a shitty lab job and get the fuck out of design. do i really want to be trapped in a lab for the rest of my life? what if it doesn't have windows? what if it makes me feel more like a moron than this job does? oh, look, an email. i have work to do... <5 minutes later> bored. let's look up design jobs. paper source is hiring a merchandise assistant. i could do that. ok, bored again. maybe a landscaping job in the summer so i can be outside. nothing. maybe a demolition job so i can destroy things. nothing. UX designer positions. the term UX pisses me off. it's just another loophole a designer has to jump through to get a job. i can do user experience with my JavaScript tied behind my back. maybe i'll take a class just to freshen up. man, this is bullshit i have to pay to learn how to do something i already do. maybe i'll look at Craigslist. floral designer. freelance photographer. interior designer. interactive designer. graphic designer for $35,000 a year. yes, please send me back to 10 years ago salary-wise, but make me have twice as many qualifications. maybe i'll just buy a fucking cabin in the middle of nowhere and do whatever the fuck i want. i feel so hopeless.