christmas

i don't know why we do this to ourselves. the second the month of december rolls around, we panic, making lists, buying crap we, and other people, don't need. meanwhile, we have a kitchen that needs fixing, a car that needs a new passenger side door and cats that need to go to the vet more often.

sometimes it's exhausting living in a capitalist society... buying, buying, buying. and why? because in the fourth century, some bishop named Nicholas liked giving stuff to the poor. it has nothing to do with Jesus, although the church will have you think otherwise. but instead of giving to the poor, we're buying plastic toys made in china for our kids to play with for about 5 minutes before being discarded for a cardboard box. i don't know when our priorities became so messed up. when did giving charity become the chump thing to do?

anyway, i'm stressed out because i still have all these gifts i've been forced to buy. i try to be good and not spend a lot of money, but then i get worried i'm going to come off as a cheapskate. so then, right at the end, i end up spending money on crap that no one wants.

sometimes i hate this time of the year.