food journal

here's what ate today: this is for my benefit and for anyone else who feels like they eat too much crap. or for anyone who wants to comment on how poorly i eat.

(6:15) breakfast: bran flakes with rice milk (200 cal)
(8:00) morning snack: banana (80 cal)

went out and tromped through 100 pounds of snow.

(9:45) my other snack: cherry jam sandwich with light bread (230)

went out and tromped through 300 pounds of snow.

got home and ate:

(10:30) oatmeal with brown sugar and cinnamon (100 cal), drank hot chocolate from a packet (80 cal)
100 calorie pack of hostess cupcakes (100 cal)

shoveled out my car for 30 minutes.

(3:00) peanut butter and jelly sammich (300 cal)
100 cal pack of crappy cheese-its (100 cal)

so, so far today, i've consumed 1090 calories. that doesn't include any calories i might have spent busting my ass in the snow.

here's my problem: i think i spend more calories than i really do. i also think that i eat a lot less than i really do. all i know for sure is that my waist isn't letting me fit into 50% of clothes. how do i get rid of that? how long do i have to hate myself before i'm back to what i was before christmas? i mean, jesus, i only gained 6 pounds!!! they all went to my waist?? and even after i lost 3 of those, i STILL don't fit into my clothes. so what happens if i bust my ass and i STILL can't fit into my skinny jeans?

then i get knocked up and actually have an excuse to 1) be fat, and 2) lose my waist.

update: went to personal training. then came home and ate:

(7:00) fiber-one bar (140 cal)
carrots
pasta with olive oil (220)

(8:30) deans light ice cream (180)

total for the day: 1630

not too shabby. the key here, i feel, is swapping out some of those carbs (believe me, i know i'm addicted) for protein. maybe some day.