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i have a hard time keeping this blog up. not that i'm going to stop after 6 years. wait. 6 years? damn. my blog is older than several of my friend's kids. and i treat it like a red-headed step-child.

anyway. here's what's going on my life:

1. i am working part-time at starbucks.
2. i am attempting to lose the weight that i gained in sept 2008 when i started taking my antidepressant. or when a neighbor introduced me to monkey bread. whichever is more plausible.
3. fin is 8 months old. he is driving us crazy.
4. it's now fall and i very sad to see summer go. i didn't use my hammock nearly enough.
5. i have more pairs of pants than any one girl should have. and only about 25% of them fit. and another 25% aren't suitable for winter.
6. i also have about 10 hoodies/cardigans.
7. i love thrift shopping. please see #5 & #6.
8. i had a dream about my dead childhood friend. it always throws me for a loop when that happens. i think i have an adult crush on him.
9. i feel the same way about the dead childhood friend dreams that i do when i dream about my ex boyfriend.
10. scott and i have lived together for 5 years and his cat still won't give me the time of day. maybe i should buy him a watch.
11. i have taken two spin classes and have lived to tell the tale. see #2.
12. right now i am watching "The Golden Child" with my husband. and i just LOLed.
13. i am still knitting up a storm, but i am finding it even harder to keep up my knitting blog than this thing.
14. i now have a kitten licking my hands. while i type. its a precursor to biting.
15. i want to make a difference in this shitty world, but i have a feeling that selling coffee isn't going to cut it.
16. sigh.
17. sometimes i wish i would get knocked up, despite how much a rant about kids on this blog.
18. i don't like this new blogger interface. it says that i can switch back to the old interface, but i know it's just a lie, like yahoo and facebook. i'll switch back and then they'll just change it anyway. ps. i had to go back and put in html tags because the "new" interface doesn't just do what i type. assholes.
19. i haven't talked to my friend jeff in a really long time. i miss him and the last time i called him, he said he would call me back. he still hasn't.
20. my old professor, amr, unfriended me on facebook and i have to admit, it kinda bugged me. part of me wondered if he unfriended me because he's friends with my ex.
21. sometimes i check out my ex's facebook page. his security settings are for shit.
22. sometimes i look for other exes on facebook. part of me thinks that if they aren't on there by now, they never will be... until they have kids.
23. none of my exes that i have kept in touch with have kids yet. i like to think that i broke them.
24. sometimes i want to call my grandma and then i remember that she's dead.
25. i still feel guilty that i never went to see my dead childhood friend before he died. i was living in michigan at the time and could have easily driven the hour to see him.
26. i was looking to buy plane tickets to fly down to see my grandma on her 90th birthday. i was too cheap so i didn't get any tickets. she got sick that night at her party and died three days later.
27. if i would have known they were having a party for her, i would have probably bought the damn tickets to be there.
28. this blog post has gone on longer than i thought it would.