the big news of the week
i'll tell my blogspot buddies first because it's not directly aimed at anyone in particular and i just don't have the energy to a write emails to people.
i got fired.
yes, i have been officially fired. i think the contract says mutual termination, but semantics aside, i was canned.
this had been building up for a while. i try not to blog negatively about work because that just a bad idea, so here's the scoop: my boss has not been pleased with my performance since she got back from her maternity leave last October. she had been keeping track of every mistake i've ever made since then. she gave me a horrible mid-year review and wrote me up in april because of another mistake i made. she had been telling HR my every wrong move. and i knew something was going on. 'cause i'm not dumb and she wears her animosity on her sleeve, like the dumb woman that she is. this post is about her amazing managerial skillz.
i am not a worker drone. i did not start my career being a cog in a wheel, therefore i have not been properly brainwashed into thinking like one. i worked at a small company for 5 years where my opinion mattered, i was really good friends with my boss, and i had the ability to implement changes and procedure that wasn't questioned at every turn. this, evidently, is my corporate downfall. am i forever damaged goods for the corporate world? that i never learned to kiss ass properly? that i refuse to accept the shit sandwich that is given to me every day? i am unorthodox and i love that part of me. there will be no amount of complaining, dirty-diaper faces, threats, HR reports or firing that will change that. it's not my fault that some people have fallen into the trap of middle-management mediocrity and now have to snort superior ass just to stay afloat. if this is all i have to look forward to until retirement, fuck that. i'll deliver pizzas. i'll work at a tastee-freeze. i'll panhandle before i spend 8 hours at a job i hate with a person who can't stand me.
needless to say, i am not sad over this firing. of course, the money will be missed, but considering i had been doing the work of 3 people, including one manager, with no increase in pay, i deserved so much more. i took that job because the freelance gravy train was ending and i was too lazy to scrounge up more business. knowing now what i do, i would have just sucked it up. now i'm 3 years behind and have 1/10 of the self-confidence i had then. right now i feel like i am completely unqualified to any job higher than a street sweeper. but i'm sure that will pass. right?
the joke's on them, really. my lovely boss is going on maternity leave in two months, leaving the department in the hands of someone who has his own job to do (and has never even done her job) and a 6-months-on-the-job lackey. i have my insiders who will tell me how smooth this transition will go. i'll keep you posted.
i got fired.
yes, i have been officially fired. i think the contract says mutual termination, but semantics aside, i was canned.
this had been building up for a while. i try not to blog negatively about work because that just a bad idea, so here's the scoop: my boss has not been pleased with my performance since she got back from her maternity leave last October. she had been keeping track of every mistake i've ever made since then. she gave me a horrible mid-year review and wrote me up in april because of another mistake i made. she had been telling HR my every wrong move. and i knew something was going on. 'cause i'm not dumb and she wears her animosity on her sleeve, like the dumb woman that she is. this post is about her amazing managerial skillz.
i am not a worker drone. i did not start my career being a cog in a wheel, therefore i have not been properly brainwashed into thinking like one. i worked at a small company for 5 years where my opinion mattered, i was really good friends with my boss, and i had the ability to implement changes and procedure that wasn't questioned at every turn. this, evidently, is my corporate downfall. am i forever damaged goods for the corporate world? that i never learned to kiss ass properly? that i refuse to accept the shit sandwich that is given to me every day? i am unorthodox and i love that part of me. there will be no amount of complaining, dirty-diaper faces, threats, HR reports or firing that will change that. it's not my fault that some people have fallen into the trap of middle-management mediocrity and now have to snort superior ass just to stay afloat. if this is all i have to look forward to until retirement, fuck that. i'll deliver pizzas. i'll work at a tastee-freeze. i'll panhandle before i spend 8 hours at a job i hate with a person who can't stand me.
needless to say, i am not sad over this firing. of course, the money will be missed, but considering i had been doing the work of 3 people, including one manager, with no increase in pay, i deserved so much more. i took that job because the freelance gravy train was ending and i was too lazy to scrounge up more business. knowing now what i do, i would have just sucked it up. now i'm 3 years behind and have 1/10 of the self-confidence i had then. right now i feel like i am completely unqualified to any job higher than a street sweeper. but i'm sure that will pass. right?
the joke's on them, really. my lovely boss is going on maternity leave in two months, leaving the department in the hands of someone who has his own job to do (and has never even done her job) and a 6-months-on-the-job lackey. i have my insiders who will tell me how smooth this transition will go. i'll keep you posted.
posted by mikraas at 9:55 PM
1 Comments:
While I am upset to read this post, I cannot help thinking that 1) you are SO much better than that organization, and 2) they will regret their decision very soon.
You are an amazing designer, and one of the major things I missed about HL was working with people like you (and specifically you!). Hang tough, because I know that companies still exist out there that are more along the lines of the non-corporate bullshit you've been dealing with for too long.
*heart*
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